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Stuck for Something

14 Jun

It has been a couple of days/weeks since I’ve written anything and to be honest, even right now I’m not inspired and still am not entirely certain what it is I should be typing. All I know is that I should write…keep my fingers tapping to remind myself that one of my passions is writing.

GAH, but what to write about? I have no clue. Yep there are tons of things in life to get me jotting things down, but are those things happening to me right now currently? Nope. Hence I’m rambling and typing for the sake of typing/writing for the sake of writing. But that can’t be that bad can it?

I guess there has been something on my mind lately. Limbo. Being in limbo, not teetering, not reeling forward or backward. Just being in limbo. Stagnant. If I were to tell my friends here that though, they would firmly disagree with me. After all I have a great job, wonderful roommates, an awesome apartment, a loving family…all that jazz. What more could I want?

Nothing right? Of course, but is that what I want? Nope. I would rather my life be teetering than in limbo, at least then I would be moving. But right now I’ve absolutely not one single clue as to what I will do for the rest of my life. Can I get a holla? haha..

Just kidding. But seriously, I think that the entire human race goes through this at some point in their lives. And here I am now. I mean before this there was school and nothing else in life…it was all planned for me, there was nothing really to concern myself with you know?  Now I’ve got to consider the difference I’ll make in the lives of other people as well as how on earth I’m going to make use of myself.

Oi Vey. (Not sure about the spelling here, but I know that it means an intensified version of “Oh dear”)

So here we go, I’m weighing down those thoughts of grandiose I’d had when I was younger and believed the world was my oyster. I wanted to be an investigative journalist and a foreign correspondent like Laraine Day in the 1940s film;

Laraine Day in Foreign Correspondent

Laraine Day in Foreign Correspondent (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

living in the east or something where my life would be on edge. I’d bring awareness, solve problems, make the world know how they can make a difference one individual at a time.

BUT…all of that was conjecture, fantasy and although I still dream of doing all of those things, I had forgotten that to get to the top one must start at the bottom. Which is logical, just not at all pleasant.

So that is how I find myself at the moment. In Limbo not at all certain where the next step should be. Its not that I’ve fallen into a mentality of merely making in through the day, no I’m still living, I guess I just need a direction.

Hmmm…rather than considering my entire life’s future right now; perhaps I should take one step just to move forward. See where it takes me, discover the little aspects that make each person’s life different and go from there.


Funny how I started this with not a single clue of what to write and I’ve come out of it with yet another cliche to apply to my life.

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